My little Bit of Honey

I haven't blogged in awhile, to be honest the holidays have taken over. Between work/Christmas/Life in general I've been busy. Well, the New Year is almost here and it's of course the time for resolutions etc. where we all say "I'm going to do this by this time next year". I've never been one for resolutions, I make them very loosely and try not to put to much constraints on myself. I don't do well when that happens. Well this year I am in fact making a resolution and that is to get healthy. So, for me to explain I'll have to go back to my physical that I had a few weeks ago.  I think I've talked about it before but I have a known thyroid history, my body does not produce enough of the Thyroid hormone. This causes me to be extremely sluggish/tired, sore, weight gains (or making it difficult to lose), thinning hair.. and even some depression. For some people it is worse than for others,  I have a pretty good dose of all the symptoms above, als...

I've written this post before, but I don't think I've ever actually posted it. Something always stops me in my tracks, something always keeps me from publishing it or making it public. Maybe this time I'll have the courage to actually post it.  There's another side to weight loss, something other than the physical aspect of it, it's the mental side of it. The emotional side, this is so much harder than the physical side of it. It all ties into itself, it all comes full circle. Your mind tells you that you can't do it and some times (most times) you believe it, it's what makes you give up and what makes you stop. If you are like me, it's what drives you to eat more and more. Then it keeps you up at night, thinking about the mistakes you made.. you chide yourself for being weak and for giving up, vowing all of these things to make the next day be better.. and for some reason it isn't. For some reason, we keep making the same mistakes and keep rep...

I'm going to be honest with myself and with all of you (probably all 2 of you that do read this haha!), I have been using my injury as an excuse. I have been saying "once I can run again, I'll be back on track" when in reality, I really just am putting it off. There's  been no reason for me not to log my food. My fingers aren't broken and the app on my phone is working perfectly fine, I just haven't been doing it. I've also been avoiding blogging because quite frankly, I didn't know what to write. I didn't want to sit down and write that I've taken this time to change my other habits and to work on other areas of my body because I haven't. SO, I've been putting it off. I apologize for that.  I've done a lot of hard things in my life, but losing weight seriously has to be the hardest.  Having a busy life shouldn't be an excuse or a reason to not get back into shape and  I spend more energy thinking about why I should be doin...