My little Bit of Honey

I found this online and thought it was super appropriate, I know I’m going to fall off the wagon at least ten times before I have a good rhythm going. It sucks to be honest, but it’s the way it is. Life gets in the way and then we have holidays and days off. We get sick or things happen and often weight loss is the first thing to get pushed to the side. Which to me is fine, It all makes sense and it’s all part of that journey (I know, how cheesy but bear with me).   The thing for me and the reason I get back on the wagon is because it’s always on my mind; honestly, there isn’t a time that I’m not thinking about how to get back on track. I can only take it day by day as I’ve said before and that’s the only way to do it right now. I’m feeling good about my work out this morning, it was so.freaking.hard. I did day 1 of C25K which I’ve completed before, but I really pushed myself this morning (I had the treadmill up to 6.5 at one point) and I wanted to quit so badly. My legs...

I kept my promise to myself, I went to the gym this morning and put all I had into my workout. I think I definitely needed to let myself "off the hook" mentally to get back into it, if that makes any sense. I'm really happy with how I did, I did 10 minutes of cardio to warm up and then the rest of the time I did resistance training and focused on my arms. I can see that I am getting stronger and the amount that I can lift is slowly going up. It's all about my attitude and keeping positive, I had a few comments on my blog post yesterday about how any work out is better than none and they were totally right. At least I got up and got out there. Sometimes I just need a reality check that this is what I have to do if I want to lose weight and feel better about myself. If I want to be healthy. In other news, the size 14 pants are fitting quite nicely today, even better than last week! I tried on a pair of my size 12 pants and I can put them on, but they are super tight (...

I woke up today just plain exhausted, the last thing I wanted to do was drag myself to the gym. Seriously, it felt like I was putting myself through pure torture this morning. I didn’t let that stop me though; I still went to the gym. I won’t lie and say I turned it into the best work out ever, because I didn’t. I did the minimum that I could do with still working out, I just couldn’t push myself to go that extra mile this morning. Which I think is ok, I’m not beating myself up over this. I had a bad workout, I think it’s allowed.   I think every now and then I’m allowed to be a little tired and to not give it all I have. With one rule, I give it all I have tomorrow. I need to make my work out tomorrow the best one so far, in order to make up for the one that I slacked on this morning. I’ve been eating well (with the exception of indulging a bit on Mother’s Day, but I’m a Mom so I’m allowed!) and keeping portion sizes down to a normal level. Eating more fruits and vegetabl...

Here we are at Thursday and week one of cracking down and going to the gym has been a success! I won't go tomorrow, because I work from home but I've made it three days this week. This is a huge accomplishment for me as I haven't really been pushing myself to go since the baby was born... or even since I found out I was pregnant, honestly. While getting up at 4:30 really isn't fun, it's not bad either. I've also started taking vitamins and taking my thyroid medicine normally again(I have a condition called Hypothyroidism which basically means my thyroid doesn't work the way it should. I end up feeling sluggish and tired all the time) I think all of these things (including drinking over 120 oz of water a day!!) have been helping me feel really great this week! I am tired by 9:30ish but that's ok,  during the day I am more alert and awake which leads to me really being able to get things done (both at work and at home). I also am noticing my body is defini...

So I've been doing a lot of re-evaluating lately about what works and what doesn't. I've obviously been having a hard time with my weight loss and sometimes I feel like the deck is stacked against me. However, today was different. I woke up at 4:30 this morning and left my house by 5, I made it to work by 5:30 and was in the gym working out by 5:35. It felt so nice to be moving so early in the morning, it felt so good to be sweating so early in the morning. I know that I will have ups and downs with this, but I have to do it. I have to get back to working out at least 3 times a week I didn't push myself super hard, but hard enough that I actually felt what I was doing, I have to remember that I've done this before. I keep saying that to myself "You've done this before". So day 1 of the gym is in the books. 

While I haven't really noticed a difference in my actual weight, I've definitely noticed that I do feel a bit "smaller", so this morning when getting ready for work, I decided to try on a pair of my old work pants. These were my "fat" pants last year before I got pregnant but the past few months getting into them has been like stuffing a sausage. So I figured, well, what the hell, I will give them a shot. To my complete surprise, they fit. I mean, they aren't falling off of me and they are a bit tight, but I can button and zip them and wear them fairly comfortably! Woohoo. We are headed in the right direction! I have a long way to go before I can start feeling good about myself again, but this definitely helps. I've been really self conscious about what I look like, so I'm hoping I don't look AS bad in these pants. All I keep thinking about is when I was in the hospital after I  had my son, the nurse was helping me into the bathroom and remar...