My little Bit of Honey

I passed the two week mark yesterday, two weeks straight of doing some type of workout and trying my best to watch what I eat. If I'm being honest, I really really did not want to get out of bed this morning. I tried so hard to talk myself out of it and to just give myself "5 more minutes" but I knew if I did that, I'd start the ball rolling down that slow decline. I didn't go to the gym this weekend, but I did get my workouts in. Saturday was supposed to be my rest day but I spent most of it cleaning my house and still hit my 10k steps. Yesterday I went for an outside run/walk because it was beautiful out and then we took our son to the zoo, I think I ended the day with 14k steps. So today I knew if I didn't go to the gym, I would have no other chance to work out today and I wouldn't do anything. SO off I went, even when I was driving there, I tried talking myself out of it, I kept saying "I can just do a half hour on the elliptical". Well I got...

8 Days. I've gone to the gym for 8 days in a row. I've been sore just about every day, got a blister on my hand but it's been so worth it. I've had more energy than I've had in awhile and have been able to actually get stuff done around the house and I find myself making better food choices because I've already worked out in the morning. Today my friend came with me and it was so much better than going alone, having someone with you makes it easier to do that last rep or to keep pushing until the end (leg ups ugh and squats.. so many squats!). We did the workout from my Fitbod app and it was a really good workout! We're both fairly beginners at weight lifting so we're starting small and then will build up to lifting heavy. It helped me mainly because I was able to go to the weight side and actually feel confident about lifting weights. I wasn't intimidated by the other people there and it felt so good! I know I'll be pretty sore tomorrow but that...

So. I've sucked. The past month and a half have been really bad. I've gained..20 pounds. I'm so ashamed to admit that out loud. I saw pictures of myself from a girlfriend's bachelorette and honestly was ashamed of what I looked like. It was then that my switch went off, I can't keep doing this anymore, I can't keep starting over. I have to start and just keep f'ing going. That being said, I decided to reach out to my FaceBook for help, I have a few guy friends that are consistent gym goers and offered to help me. This is good. These are the guys who will kick my ass (not literally of course) if I skip a day and text me at 5:00 am to make sure I'm out of bed. I've told my husband I'm not allowed to sleep in anymore, usually I just stay in bed after he gets up at 5:20. Now I'm up and out of the house before he wakes up and this has to be every day. I have to build it into a routine so that it becomes natural. I haven't really been runni...

For the last few years I've been saying I wanted to do a half marathon, I had it as my ultimate goal three years ago and I still haven't achieved it. In fact, last year, it seemed so far off that I never thought I'd even come close to it. Well I'm thinking about it now and thinking I may have set my sights a wee bit high.  The day before yesterday I went for a run, I came back a bit discouraged because I couldn't run more than 5 minutes at a time. Everything hurt and I hated every second that I was running. My lungs were BURNING, it was awful. I was a total mess. So I reached out to some of my friends and they pointed out that I was likely going too fast and should slow it down a bit. So I took their advice to heart *they are all experienced runners*and planned on applying it the next day.  I set out yesterday and did my usual 5 minute warm up walk and started to run, I kept my pace slow and steady and focused on my breathing. I also changed my app to let me kno...

I haven't been doing great the last few weeks at planning and you know what, it's shown. I've been off the rails again. Ugh. So this week, I planned my meals already, did my grocery shopping and I have my plan ready to set up on Sunday. I only need to grab some mason jars and we should be good to go!  I'm going to share my meal plan so you can all see what I'm aiming for. Monday: Chicken Zoodle Caprese Tuesday: Taco stuffed peppers with side salad Wednesday: Turkey burgers with sweet potato fries (for me) Regular fries (for the guys) and a side salad Thursday: Filet Mignon with baked potato (Sweet for me) and Asparagus (possibly bacon wrapped) Friday: Steak Kabobs with peppers/onions/mushrooms (For me) and zucchini "fries"  Saturday: we're having family over so I'll do a big meal Sunday: Pizza skillet with a side salad  For breakfast I'm going to make overnight oats for myself, smoothies for my guys (and a veggie one for me for a sna...

So I've gone 12 days without coffee. 12.days. That is the longest I have gone in a long time and I gotta say, I'm feeling pretty good about it. I don't really have that foggy feeling in the morning anymore and my tea has been working just fine. Sometimes I do miss it, like yesterday I was walking by Starbucks in Target and all I could smell was coffee, I thought about how good it would taste, but I kept on walking. My headaches are completely gone, in fact, I feel much better overall. I'm still working on keeping my energy up, which is tough because I've got a cold now, but I'm making do. That brings me to my next topic: being sick. I've got a cold and it's not a really bad one, just enough to make me uncomfortable and annoyed with my cough. When I'm sick usually all I want to do is sleep and eat, the things I want to eat are total comfort food. So I'm trying to stay focused and eat healthy foods so that I can stay on track and feel better soon...

I have never had a good relationship with food, happy? Eat. Sad? Eat. Just feeling meh? Eat. Breathing? Eat. Food is both my love and my enemy at the same time. It helps me and hurts me, when in reality it's only supposed to help me. I've been on somewhat of a binge lately, I've gained a good amount of weight back and man, that stings to type. To acknowledge. I've been avoiding the scale, looking in the mirror.. basically avoiding myself. So we can see where that has gotten me. (Answer is nowhere) At 31.5 (eeeeesh) I really have to start thinking more about my health, I've never really been in a "Good" place healthwise. Either my thyroid is wonky or my iron is low.. I'm tired. constantly. I'm sore. Constantly. I can never just have a good day and feel great and I'm really sick of it. I've been doing a lot of research and having a lot of conversations with what exactly eating healthy is, some will say that it's never having a grain or ...