Never been the fat girl..until now.

All of my life I have heard the same thing when talking weight loss, "you look great, you don't need to lose weight" until now.

I was married in August of 2011 and the day was perfect. I felt perfect. That is when this good feeling ended. Over the past year I have slowly packed on more and more weight, at first I was blaming it on my thyroid. Well here we are 6 months later and the thyroid medicine is in full swing, yet the weight isn't coming off.

Hmm. How is this possible?! I have never put weight on like this before! Oh wait..could it be that I'm eating whatever I want all the time. That I'm consuming over 3k calories a day and not exercising? Ah, that is it. It's not my thyroid or my health, it's me. I'm the only one to blame for the way I look.  It's sad, because I look in the mirror and just sigh at the way I look. None of my "cute" clothes fit anymore and I just look sloppy. I feel terrible, my poor husband did not marry this "fat girl".

I've been doing my fitness pal for awhile, and I was doing great, I've lost 7 lbs. But I keep falling off the wagon, and not holding myself accountable.  "This is where it ends" I say every time I shovel a forkful of home fries or something else fried and delicious into my mouth. After today, I am getting back into it! Sadly, "after today" never comes and the cycle repeats.

I have a friend, who is a great inspiration to me. She has lost 21lbs with MFP and C25K, she is amazing. Her dedication and her will to do this is what inspires me. She even has a blog (The First 43) and her posts are amazing, which is why I thought to myself  "hey I should do that".

Let's see if writing a blog and logging everything I eat will help to keep me inspired.  Something has to work.

Unitl next time
KB

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