My little Bit of Honey

It's been about 5 years or so that I've been calorie counting etc. but I've never really had a really good grasp about WHAT exactly I should be eating. I know the basics, but the balance and how much I should actually be eating has always been a mystery to me. So, I decided to reach out to my doctors office and see if I could get a referral to see a nutritionist. They got back to me and have one right in the office that I go to (great!) and they will contact me to schedule an appointment. I am for some reason nervous about this, I am sure they will tell me I need to lose a decent amount of weight and that I'm probably not eating as well as I should be. It'll be nice to actually have a good and strong foundation to build on though, instead of just guessing "this is how much I need to eat" and I should only have this amount of carbs and sugar a day etc. I'm also hoping it helps me figure out why I feel so.. blah all of the time. I refuse to believe that

I haven't really been writing lately, I'm finding it hard to stay in the groove.  I write when I'm doing well because of course I have good things to write about. I try to write when I'm not doing so well and usually end up deleting the post 4 times before just quitting all together. Here is my struggle: I cannot for the life of me stay with this running thing. I am having the hardest time staying motivated to go out and run! It's beautiful out in the morning, I can get up at 5am and have my run done by 6, get home and get my day started. I just have such a hard time actually getting up and getting out there.  I know it's a matter of having that push, I just, I'm not even really sure why I can't. Then if I don't get up, I think that I'll be able to get out and go for a run during the day, well with my new workload, that doesn't happen either.  I've been trying to do a lot of workouts I found on Pinterest because those can be done quickl

I grew up as a member of the clean plate club and usually that plate had a lot more than the recommended serving size and if you've been reading my blog, you'll know that I love to eat. I can eat an entire large pizza on my own (and have), whole pint of ice cream? yep. Large fries (hell yes). If something tastes good I have a bottomless pit for a stomach. Doesn't really apply to the healthy and good for you stuff. Why go back for seconds on the green veggies if you can have more mashed potatoes or french fries?  Portion control is my biggest battle, I just can't seem to get it down. I try to chew slowly, but still I want more when I'm done, even when I'm full. It's been such a mind game to work it out in my head. I did the 21 day fix awhile back and sure it was great and helped a bit, but the containers didn't work that great for me when it came to dinner with my family and I just couldn't have that much forethought to actually measure things out e