My little Bit of Honey

I try to be  100% honest here, the main reason for that is because this is where I have my accountability. If I'm not writing much or putting much into it then I'm most likely not really trying hard. That's exactly what has been happening. I have been having a tough few weeks mentally, I really haven't been focusing on myself. I have been exhausted, we're talking can barely keep my eyes open past 7pm exhausted. I've been lacking on taking my iron pills (I need to take 2 a day as I am anemic) and I've been getting very anxious. It all sort of came to a head this morning, I woke up as usual to come to the gym but when I got here, I just couldn't do it. I couldn't push myself to do a single thing, not to run, walk or even do any sort of weights. My body just felt....tired. So I didn't work out and as I was getting ready and feeling all sorts of discouraged about myself I started to reflect on what exactly was going on and I realized it's all rel

I've been the type of person that hasn't always known when to not push myself. Since I started working out at the gym in my building at work I've gone no matter what. Even if I wasn't feeling great, just tried to push through it. There's days when you can do this and there's days when you just shouldn't, when you need to listen to your body and know when you just can't do it.  I had a very busy weekend, friends of ours got married so we went to their wedding Saturday and Sunday was busy too! Of course I didn't drink much water..and drank a bit more of something else than I should have, so I was pretty dehydrated..add not sleeping much for 2 days on top of it all and it's just a recipe for disaster. I set my alarm for my usual 4AM wake up time but barely slept last night so when it went off, I tried to get up and push myself. I had the worst migraine I've had in as long as I can remember, it was one of those nausea inducing migraines that just

I have been having a hard time the last month or so, every time I get back on track..I let something derail me. Well even with the lack of exercise, I've still been losing weight. I lost another .6 lbs which seems like not much, but it put me over the 20lb lost mark! Hooray! It's taken quite a long time to get these 20lbs off but they are gone and now I just have to look forward to the rest of the weight coming off. I have 35 pounds to go till I hit my goal and 25 pounds till I am back to where I was pre pregnancy. I can totally do this! Every day is a struggle to eat well and a push to exercise but I have been keeping my goal in mind. My timeline for my goal is to lose the majority of this weight by my 30th Birthday in August. I downloaded a few apps on my phone to help me with getting back to running. I originally had used Couch 2 5k to start running and have honestly been making half assed attempts to get back to it. So I downloaded that again along with 10k and 13.1, my e

This morning I decided for some crazy reason that I should weigh myself, I hadn't really wanted to on Friday because I just didn't think I could face the scale. So, before I left for the gym I stepped on the scale and was incredibly surprised, I was down to 171.4. I hadn't been working out very much, but I also haven't been eating much either so I guess it all balanced out. After weighing myself I realized that I am finally  back to where I started 2.5 years ago.  I remember thinking how awful I felt when I weighed this back then and how ashamed I was. My, my how times have changed. I started this whole journey with a goal weight in mind and got to within 15 pounds of it. Now, 2 years ago at this time, I weighed 140 pounds (or around there, I can't remember exactly) and had just bought a house. unknown to me, I was also pregnant (though I wouldn't find out until March 29th). During my pregnancy I put on a ridiculous amount of weight and not just the amount of we