My little Bit of Honey

I haven't blogged in awhile, to be honest the holidays have taken over. Between work/Christmas/Life in general I've been busy. Well, the New Year is almost here and it's of course the time for resolutions etc. where we all say "I'm going to do this by this time next year". I've never been one for resolutions, I make them very loosely and try not to put to much constraints on myself. I don't do well when that happens. Well this year I am in fact making a resolution and that is to get healthy. So, for me to explain I'll have to go back to my physical that I had a few weeks ago.  I think I've talked about it before but I have a known thyroid history, my body does not produce enough of the Thyroid hormone. This causes me to be extremely sluggish/tired, sore, weight gains (or making it difficult to lose), thinning hair.. and even some depression. For some people it is worse than for others,  I have a pretty good dose of all the symptoms above, als

I've written this post before, but I don't think I've ever actually posted it. Something always stops me in my tracks, something always keeps me from publishing it or making it public. Maybe this time I'll have the courage to actually post it.  There's another side to weight loss, something other than the physical aspect of it, it's the mental side of it. The emotional side, this is so much harder than the physical side of it. It all ties into itself, it all comes full circle. Your mind tells you that you can't do it and some times (most times) you believe it, it's what makes you give up and what makes you stop. If you are like me, it's what drives you to eat more and more. Then it keeps you up at night, thinking about the mistakes you made.. you chide yourself for being weak and for giving up, vowing all of these things to make the next day be better.. and for some reason it isn't. For some reason, we keep making the same mistakes and keep rep

I'm going to be honest with myself and with all of you (probably all 2 of you that do read this haha!), I have been using my injury as an excuse. I have been saying "once I can run again, I'll be back on track" when in reality, I really just am putting it off. There's  been no reason for me not to log my food. My fingers aren't broken and the app on my phone is working perfectly fine, I just haven't been doing it. I've also been avoiding blogging because quite frankly, I didn't know what to write. I didn't want to sit down and write that I've taken this time to change my other habits and to work on other areas of my body because I haven't. SO, I've been putting it off. I apologize for that.  I've done a lot of hard things in my life, but losing weight seriously has to be the hardest.  Having a busy life shouldn't be an excuse or a reason to not get back into shape and  I spend more energy thinking about why I should be doin

I haven't written much lately because quite honestly I've been feeling pretty down about my knee situation. I didn't want to put up a front and fake it, so I just decided not to write. It sucks because I want to run so badly and my knee actually is starting to feel better, but I know that I just can't do that right now. Very discouraging. So I really haven't been paying much attention to my weight etc. this morning I realized I had to weigh myself, I'm doing a challenge at work and you need to submit your weight. Well, before I left the house I weighed in. Turns out I actually lost a pound! Hooray! Through it all I've still been keeping myself in check food wise and eating less/better choices.  Seems to be working! This is a victory for me because I am now in the 170s, which yes is not anywhere near where I want to be, but it is one step closer. I am 7 pounds away from where I was when I completely changed my lifestyle 2 years ago. I feel like once I can h

I went to my physical therapy assessment yesterday, It was interesting to say the least.  I was really nervous about the appointment, I figured that I would be told that I couldn't do any type of cardio for quite awhile - and I was right.  The physical therapist was very nice and funny, which helped since I am one of those people who when I'm feeling awkward or uncomfortable usually makes some type of inappropriate joke. She asked me a zillion questions about how I got there, what I used to do for exercise, what I can do now etc.  Basically right now, I can't walk longer than 20 minutes without my knee feeling like there is absolutely nothing in there but bone on bone. It's excruciating when it acts up and I end up hobbling around, this is mighty different than the girl who walked 26.2 miles a little over a month ago. I found out that it in fact is not caused by my marathon walk, but basically by getting older and being overweight..Oh and not stretching properly. Well I

So, I did the Jimmy Fund Walk a little over a month ago and since I did it my knee has been bothering me. I’ve let it go and had the mind set of “If I can run through it, it’s not that bad” or “If I can ignore it, it isn’t really there”. Well unfortunately it’s only gotten worse, with last week’s 3 days of couch 2 5k it seems to have irritated it even more.   It was so bad this morning I couldn’t even walk on the treadmill, I tried running and barely got to 45 seconds before I just had to stop. I was so disappointed. I still did a small work out (abs and some stretching to try and help my knee), but it wasn’t nearly as good and I barely have 4k steps as of this afternoon. I broke down and made an appointment to see my doctor because nothing I have been doing is helping, plus I’m taking Ibuprofen every day to try and alleviate some of the pain and I know that can’t be good. Fingers crossed that it is just a simple fix.   So for now I’ll have to focus on the eating better aspect o

I finished week one of couch to 5k. Today was really hard for some reason, I don't know if it was because I took 2 days off to rest my knee or what, but I was just having such a hard time with finishing. I did finish though and I even continued on for about 2 minutes more after to make sure I hit 200 calories burned and 2.20 miles. I know that doesn't sound like a lot to most people (And hey 2 years ago it wouldn't sound like a lot to me to be honest) but for me it is a lot.  That is totally me right now, but hey it's progress. Onto week 2 of Couch 2 5k. I'm hoping I can try to get a run in this weekend just to start week 2 but we will see! My weekends always seem to get the best of me and by Sunday night at 8pm I'm sitting there wondering what happened. We shall see though. Alright, well that is about all that I have for today! Nothing to exciting!Happy Friday!

This week has started off really well, even though it's only Tuesday I'm feeling good about it. I joined a challenge group on Facebook to keep myself accountable and I'm also getting into the habit of checking into MFP every day again. I saw the above quote and it really stuck with me. How freaking true is it that we earn our body? Think about that for a second, everything you eat and the exercise you do (or don't do) all goes towards how you look and more importantly how you feel . I noticed something yesterday, by the end of the day I didn't have that mind numbingly tired feeling that I usually have. I felt relaxed and I felt rested. Even though I had still gotten up at 4:25 and worked out, worked for the whole day etc. I think it was because I went to bed early the night before, got a good nights rest, drank my water and felt great.  I never feel that way. I think that will have to be a goal I will have to reach towards every day. Just to feel..good. Another

I have been taking a hiatus from blogging lately; it really has to do with a lot of factors. We had some crazy virus run through our house and my son, husband and myself all got sick at one point. It was rough. One of the hardest things you can go through as a parent is when your kid is sick and there’s nothing you can do about it. So basically the past 3 weeks I haven’t been working out and I’ve been eating very little, I lost 6 pounds in about a week. Well now that things are back to normal, baby is 100% himself again and I am pretty much back to normal so I have no reason to not be eating healthy and working out. So far this week I’ve worked out three times (though this morning was legs and I really didn’t give it all I had) and have been eating much better. I’m working really hard to incorporate 5 servings of fruits/vegetables into my diet a day.   The way I’m doing this is making sure that with every meal or every time I eat that in addition to whatever I’m having, I add

Well I did it! I finished the Jimmy Fund Boston Marathon walk! What a great experience it was, really and truly. I figured I would give a run down here as I really want to tell people about it and how truly rewarding it was.   This may be long, but I’ll go through it as a timeline of my day. The miles might not be completely accurate in terms of location as at some point I started getting a bit delirious. Wake up at 4:30: I woke up feeling really excited for the race, I didn’t feel tired just anxious to get going, I wanted to arrive for a 5:30 start but in reality I didn’t get out the door until a little after 5. 5:30: Arrive in   Hopkinton, I parked in one of the middle school lots and got on the bus to go to the starting line, there were already a ton of people there. It was so cool to see all the t-shirts and everyone was just so pumped to get going. I wasn’t sure what to expect once we go to the starting line but when we got there they dropped us off and I headed into th

Well, I suppose it's about time I update this again. I really haven't been and of course I've been busy and life has gotten in the way, however, that wasn't the entire reason for me not updating. I've lost some of my focus, I let interruptions in my routine give me excuses and here we are again. Luckily, I haven't gained weight, but I feel like I have. I just feel..blah right now. I've been blaming all of this on outside sources (to busy working/taking care of the baby/family stuff) when really, I've had that all along and it's not an excuse for me. I want to lose 10 pounds by November and if I continue the way I have been, there's no way I'll achieve that goal. It's all on me. I have spent some of today looking at pictures of me from last year and I just want to get back to that. It hurts because I feel like I am not the same person overweight as I am when I was thinner. I know, that sounds ridiculous, but when I have lost weight I hav

Yesterday was a bad day for me, like, just one of those no good terribly bad days. I woke up with a headache, it was hot, work was stressful and then I had to sit in traffic for an hour and a half because I was late leaving work. Just..Ugh. I went to bed early because I felt so tired and thought I'd get a great nights sleep. Nope. I was up on and off all night, the baby was up a few times (which I'm guessing has something to do with having the air conditioner on in his room) and I just couldn't sleep for some reason. So in one of those bits of not sleeping, I started thinking about my fitness and running etc. well..I mean.."running" (Cause let's face it, I haven't been running for real at all lately, it's been more a half hazard walk/jog) and I thought to myself "what the hell are you afraid of?" I'm afraid in a way to get going again and to start over. So I do these walks and tell myself that I'm working out (which I am) but I'

I took last week off because I had my Birthday on Wednesday (Big 2-9!) and also some other circumstances that I had going on, I could have worked out, but, I just need a few days off. Sometimes it's important to recognize it and not dismiss that feeling to "keep pushing".  This way you don't get burnt out and you don't give up so easily. I even missed an entire day of calorie counting, which is a bummer because now my counter resets to 1, but, what can you do? It happens. One good thing related to weight loss did happen to me though, I hit my goal! I lost 5 pounds by my Birthday, it took me awhile, but I weighed myself a few days before my Birthday and I actually did it! I'm pretty excited and proud, I feel like it's a big first step and that I have actually made some progress. So now my next goal will be to lose 10 pounds by Halloween, that's a full 2 months so I feel like this is something that I can definitely do. The hardest part of getting bac

I can't believe the Summer is almost over, how did that happen so fast?? I love the fall and I know I've done posts about it before, so I won't go on and on about how much I love Pumpkin and the crisp air. :) I am excited for these last two weeks of August though, they are always my favorite weeks of the summer! My Anniversary is tomorrow! 3 Years! yay! Then my Birthday is next week  all great things! I'm doing a challenge at work that has all these things you do to make yourself healthier and you earn points for it. I'm a bit nervous as one of the things would be to get rid of all the "great white hazards" which are things like white flour, white potatoes and rice. I LOVE potatoes and I can't really imagine going 3 months without them, but I'm going to give it a shot, same for rice.    So hopefully I can complete the challenge and win the points! I signed up for a 5kawhile ago and definitely did not realize it was this Saturday. Whoops! So I

Well after a bit of a drought I finally lost weight, 1.6 pounds to be exact! I had known it would happen like that, it's just hard when you are dealing with it and not seeing any results. I've been sticking to my calories and not going over to much, the weekends are still hard to keep track of (mainly because I am always on the move) but I do my best. I have found that I don't really eat much on the weekends but I don't necessarily eat healthy either. So, something I'm  always working on. Still working out! I've been doing HIIT (which stands for High Intensity Interval Training, in case you are like me and had to ask/look it up haha) and it's a killer! Lot's of squats, burpees, push ups..etc. but it really gives me the burn I'm looking for. Plus, it's enough to keep me entertained since I tend to get bored easily with a work out. I'm starting to work on putting together a work out for each day of the week (in addition to my morning run/walk)

Usually when I am talking to people about my workout schedule and what it consists of people usually say this to me: "Wow, how do you get up so early?!"  "I could never do that". Well...here's the God's honest truth for you all of why I get up so early: I am lazy. Now I know, getting up at 4:30 (or 4:25 because minutes count when it's that early, folks) is not the definition of lazy. The reason I am lazy is because I pack my gym bag every night with everything I will need for the next day and leave it downstairs in the kitchen so I'm not stumbling around my dark bedroom and waking my entire house up. So for me to wake up at 4:30 and decide "meh, I'll skip today" and go back to sleep means that I get maaaaybe 20 minutes extra of sleep (in which case I will probably wake up more tired than I already am) and then have to go downstairs get my bag and get ready at home and then leave later than usual and fight an hours worth of traffic. If I

I totally forgot to do a post this week, where is my head at this week? Things are going ok - still haven't lost a pound, which is such a bummer! I haven't gained one but I haven't lost any either. I remember going through this when I was doing this the last time. I wouldn't lose for a few weeks and then bam, 2 pounds off. So hopefully that'll be the case this time around but we will see! I just have to continue what I'm doing and trust that it will work. Instead of focusing and dwelling on the fact that I haven't lost anything recently, I want to list the positive things that I've changed recently: 1.) I've cut down on my snacking. Snacking was a huge part of my day to day, I would be eating constantly throughout the day. Now, I have one snack a day and that's between breakfast and lunch. If I really get hungry in the afternoon I try to have a piece of fruit to tide me over or some chocolate covered cranberries (only one serving!) but us

Mondays are tough, especially those ones that you actually have to peel yourself out of bed. You know the ones, your eyelids feel like sandpaper and hurt to open.. how can it possibly be 4:30 already? (or 6 or whenever you wake up). These are the mornings I think to myself "Good Lord, there is no way this is worth it. There is no freaking way that I can do this" yet, I do. Though I did give myself an extra 10 minutes this morning, but I got up and made my way out the door. Here I am.  Finally drinking my coffee after working out and getting ready, the worst part of today is that I *still* feel like I could go back to sleep for another 3 hours. Ugh, all the coffee, please. OK, that's enough complaining for today, here is what you are actually here to read about! This week was good, not great like last week, but still good. I still stayed within my range each day and still managed to make my 10k steps most days. The results? Well, I didn't lose any weight last week bu