My little Bit of Honey

Hooray, today is Friday! Even better, today is Friday before a long weekend! I am more than a little excited to have this three day weekend.  It is supposed to be really good weather as well, so I'm going to get outside as much as possible I had a doctors appt yesterday and found out that the Asthma I had thought went away has come back. I knew it had, since the night before I couldn't stop coughing after a run and I've been wheezing like an 80 year old smoker for the past few weeks. So the Dr. put me on two inhalers one for daily use and one as a "Rescue" or to also use before I work out. I'm hoping this will help me to be able to run a bit faster since I will not be gasping for breath the entire time.   So I did not get to run last night since the Dr told me it probably wouldn't be a good idea and to just wait a day until my chest was feeling a bit better. Today it is better, but I am having dinner with my aunt and I'm not sure what time I will g

Yesterday I started doing C25K over again with a friend, it felt good to do it with someone.  We started out slow as my friend hasn't ran like this before, so I didn't want to overwhelm her. She did great! I remember how hard it was for me when I first started, that minute of jogging seriously felt like it went on forever.  Doing that made me think about how far I've come, I used to not even think about running a mile, now I strive for it.   It made me so proud of myself to remember how out of shape I was, and how much it really hurt to run before. I have come so far, and for that I am proud. However, I know I still have a long way to go. I don't think I will ever been one of those people who can run a 9 minute mile. Maybe not even a ten minute mile, but that's ok. After I finished a delicious dinner and a piece of cake (hey a girl needs sweets every now and then) I decided to go for another run. I was thinking when I started "I'll just do ten minutes&quo

Ah, it's a beautiful morning! The sun is shining and it's a crips 65 degrees out, these are the mornings that I live for. Seriously, fall is the best season.  Don't get me wrong, I love summer, but there is just something so special about Fall. The leaves change, the air smells different and all kinds of pumpkiny and appley things come out! YAY! I know that this is short lived, and it will probably be 95 degrees tomorrow, but I'm going to enjoy it now. I still have yet to have a pumpkin coffee, that doesn't come until after Labor day.  We rush things to much, Christmas things are out in October, Halloween things are out in August.. it's just sad. This is why I refuse to allow myself to taste any pumpkin deliciousness (including pumpkin beer or coffee) until Labor day. After Labor day though, all bets are off. Now, to my actual point of my post. I decided to start C25K over again, I haven't done it in awhile because we moved and I don't really feel comf

I am now 27. Hm. Strange, doesn't feel any different than 26 did...or 25 for that matter. Why is it that every year, I always expect to feel so much wiser and more prepared on my Birthday? Who knows. Maybe it's in that thinking as I get older I will grow wiser, has not happened yet. Things I have learned: -People will always talk, no matter what you are doing or saying..someone, somewhere will not like it. -It is nearly impossible to be happy with your entire life. There is something that you will always find fault with, it's the nature of the beast. -I like coffee with very little skim milk, blisteringly hot and with 3 sugars. Much different than when I was 21 and drank it with WHOLE milk and 6 sugars. Blech. what was wrong with me? Why even drink coffee? -Love is the most amazing feeling in the world. It truly is, to know that someone is willing to put up with your shit enough to want to stay with you forever is pretty amazing. -LovING someone is amazing too..this

Well, I think I have finally hit rock bottom on this whole weight loss thing. I was up all night last night, crying (well partially because I really wasn't feeling well still) but also because I just feel helpless.  How do I force myself to lose weight or to get back into it? How can I give myself that push that I need? I'm so miserable today and just need to get it out. I look at girls that have nice thing muscular bodies and I am just so jealous. I think how it must be so nice to be at that point, where people look at you and envy you. I don't think anyone envies the way I look, I am always ashamed when I see people I haven't seen in awhile because I just know the first thing that they think of is " wow she gained a lot of weight".  I have just been thinking of how can I get myself to the point that they are at and I honestly don't know. I've tried working out and eating right but something always happens and I end up back here to where I am. Excep

Isn't that the way it always goes? You have a great night and then something comes along to tear it down a bit. Hubs and I went out for our Anniversray dinner last night, it was wonderful. It was so nice to just be together and celebrate our first year of Marriage. I love being married, I love saying I'm married, I love my last name..everything about it. I like saying to people "this is my Husband". It doesn't hur that I hit the jackpot with my guy. He is amazing, really and truly. He makes me laugh more than anyone else and is so damn smart, that sometimes it drives me crazy ;). However, after a lovely night out.. we went to bed and I woke up at 3:30 in the morning with a massive headcahe and a fever (I thought it might have been a slight hangover at first 4 glasses of wine can do that to a girl!) but the fever probably would not account for that. Anyway, I took some advil and drank a bottle of water and went back to sleep. I woke up exhausted and sore, so I&

I am sliding down that slippery slope again, I had 2 cans of regular Pepsi this weekend and a drumstick. Even when I eat these things, I am thinking to myself "You don't want this or need this.STOP" but I don't. My willpower has been slowly going away, and I'm not quite sure how to get it back.   It's so easy for people to look at you and say "It's easy to lose weight..just stop eating the bad stuff and work out more"  but I don't think these people truly understand the struggle that it can be to actually do these things. I have eaten whatever I want for the past 27 years, it's probably been the hardest thing I've ever done to attempt to change my eating habits.  I feel like it's a yo-yo effect and I keep going back and forth back and forth. My Fitness Pal has definitely helped to keep me accountable for my eating, but I find myself slacking back to where I was before.  The only thing I can do is to keep on trying and hopefull

All of my life I have heard the same thing when talking weight loss, "you look great, you don't need to lose weight" until now. I was married in August of 2011 and the day was perfect. I felt perfect. That is when this good feeling ended. Over the past year I have slowly packed on more and more weight, at first I was blaming it on my thyroid. Well here we are 6 months later and the thyroid medicine is in full swing, yet the weight isn't coming off. Hmm. How is this possible?! I have never put weight on like this before! Oh wait..could it be that I'm eating whatever I want all the time. That I'm consuming over 3k calories a day and not exercising? Ah, that is it. It's not my thyroid or my health, it's me. I'm the only one to blame for the way I look.  It's sad, because I look in the mirror and just sigh at the way I look. None of my "cute" clothes fit anymore and I just look sloppy. I feel terrible, my poor husband did not marry th