My little Bit of Honey

So I've been at this for awhile now and I've seen my Personal Trainer 3 times so far. I was starting to get discouraged and fall back into old habits at first because I hadn't seen any improvement, but I owned it, I acknowledged to myself that I was slacking and tried to figure out why. I realized that I've been so afraid of doing this because I'm terrified that it's not going to work. I mean, how silly is that. Really. So I started really trying to be better about what I ate, not necessarily eating less but eating better. I've been eating quite a bit of fruit and trying to not eat/buy any processed foods. My grocery bill has gone up a bit, but, it seems to be helping! I've lost about 2 pounds or so since I started, it's not much but it's something and it's enough to keep me going. My "fat pants" that I bought for work are starting to get really big on me (I even pulled them off without unbuttoning them yesterday!).I'm nowhere

I've been having a hard time feeling motivated this time around, I'm not sure if it's just that my body has changed or that I just am getting used to not sleeping as much as I used to, but I just can't find my motivation anywhere. I decided I had to do something differently this time, mainly because my life is different now and what worked before may not necessarily work this time. After a lot of thought and discussion with my extremely supportive husband (props to him!) I decided to do some sessions with a personal trainer. I need someone to give me that kick in the butt to get things going. I did a "trial" session with a trainer I found online, their studio is in my town and not far. I met my trainer and realized that I could not BS this woman, she would definitely not accept any "I'm tired" or "I wasn't feeling great so I didn't work out" excuses. My trainer is a marathon runner, kickboxing instructor and a two time colon can