My little Bit of Honey

I've been gone for awhile, I know. Trust me, I know. I've been having such a hard time finding something that I can stick to and for the longest time I couldn't figure out why, I've been gaining weight back and I'm really sad and ashamed about that. I know I need to get recommitted and finally lose this last 30 pounds that I've been working towards for 3 years now. YES THREE YEARS. Ugh. So I'm getting back to it, I'm going to make three small goals for each week and just focus on those. It won't be major changes at first, I'll work up to that, but it'll be something at least. I'm also really considering joining a gym, my company pays for a good amount of a gym membership so I really don't have an excuse. Working from home as much as I thought it would make things easier, has made me lazier so I think I need something to get me out of the house for a little while each day. Plus with the winter coming running outside is not ideal and ...

Today marks two years since I officially gave up soda. I can't believe it, I've never gone this long and I'm SO proud of myself for it! To understand why I feel this way, let's go back in time.. growing up all I drank was soda, water was gross. I would wake up, go to school and go directly to the soda machines, get a mountain dew and drink it all before 8am. Always had a bottle of soda with me during the day at school and most days my lunch was only soda and a candy bar (seriously). I would get the supersized coke at McDonald's every time. When I met my husband, I was drinking soda constantly (this was 9 years ago), in fact the first real conversation we had was when I was going to get a soda in the vending machine at work. I've had several cavities over the years, one root canal and most of the enamel has worn off my teeth. I had digestive issues and migraines constantly, I never considered that this was having such an adverse affect on my health. As time went ...

I think the past few months have been tough for me, not sure exactly why, just a lot going on. A lot of stress and unfortunately I crawled back into my old cave of self indulgence and let the progress I was making slip away. I gained weight back and I was OK with it. Well today I'm not OK with it, today I took a step towards finally losing this weight once and for all. I started C25K (for the 800000 time) and did my first run with it. I ran 2 miles and it felt good, finally it felt good to be out there. I gave it all I had for those 25 minutes, I walked when they told me to walk but for the minute I ran, I actually ran, not jogged lightly. I got a cramp in my right side about half way through but I didn't stop. I recharged my FitBit for the first time in a few months and put it vowing to only take it off to shower and charge it (or to let my wrist rest for a few hours). I had a salad for lunch. I've started MFP again and am going to log my food. So how am I going to sta...

I haven't posted in quite awhile, one of the reasons is that I've been pretty busy. My husband and I spent 9 days trekking around Europe and it was amazing. Rome was my favorite, such a beautiful city filled with just lovely people. Paris was beautiful too, but Roma, Roma has my heart. So while I had a fantastic Summer, it was also a wee bit tough on me emotionally. I constantly had this nagging feeling in the back of my head that I just needed to get back on track and it just never happened. I stopped running altogether and put weight back on (I'm not sure how much because I am absolutely terrified to weigh myself right now), it was just not a good time for me. I don't really know where the mental block came from, I just kept putting it off and eating one more of this or drinking more of that. I feel it physically too, my asthma which was non existent for almost the entire summer is back, I went for a run and my body just felt sluggish. I restarted C25K, I've don...

My 31st Birthday was on Saturday, I was in NYC with friends for a wedding, I didn't mind one bit. It was an excellent weekend and I danced, drank (and drank..) and ate my way through the weekend. It is what it is and I don't regret a second of it I partied like I was 21 again, except my body very quickly reminded me that I am NOT 21 anymore. By the end of the weekend my whole body ached and I felt like I was hit by a truck. Still it was totally worth it.  Now though, I'm onto my 31st year and I feel like I need to set some new goals for myself. The goals have always been the same and usually they don't get achieved. Sad, yet true. I've been trying to lose this last 24 pounds for a few months now, I really need to take it seriously now. So I was looking on Pinterest trying to find some motivation. I stumbled upon a blog that a woman wrote and it was about running at least 1 mile every day for a year. I can do that. I can totally do that, might be tough in the winte...

Last week was pretty terrible, I won't lie. I didn't grocery shop so I didn't have much for healthy food in the house. We had a party at the house so I had all this... yummy but crappy for you food all around me. Not to mention the delicious wine and beer we also got, hard stuff to say no to and my willpower was in the toilet basically. So Friday I took the time I needed, pulled myself up by my bootstraps and shopped, got the healthy stuff and went from there. I still didn't do GREAT this weekend, but I had the option. Today though, today I am on my shit. I did two workouts and have eaten really well so far, including vegetables! I have the hardest time with veggies, seriously. Drinking my water as well and just feeling better. I went for a run and it was HARD but I also got down to a really good under 10 minute pace for 2 miles which has not happened in awhile. So, that's great! I hit my 10k steps and am on an accountability thread group so I have my own post tha...

If you've been reading along, you may remember that awhile back I made an appointment to see a Nutritionist, well that appointment was on Friday. It was really interesting to say the least and very eye opening. I had talked to a friend before going and knew somewhat of what I should expect. I'll try to break down the visit as best I can. So the first thing we she did was just of course ask me why I was there and about my current eating habits. I told her I'm looking to lose the last 25 pounds and get back to pre baby weight but being healthier and to change my habits - for life. I also mentioned that I'm an emotional eater, stress makes me eat. She was not concerned with my calories, but more my balance of what I was eating. Makes sense. She also helped me see that I've really been depriving myself of things that are part of a BALANCED diet. The key word there is balanced, I eat a lot of starch (duh potatoes) and a lot of sugar but not a lot of natural sugar which...