My little Bit of Honey

I have Hypothyroidism, I know I've talked about it effecting my weight before, but I haven't really gone too deep into what this really means for me. It means I feel tired ( and I don't mean just yawn tired..I mean like head numbing tired)and miserable all of the time, have anxiety/depression, my body aches, I can't concentrate, I forget things, my hair falls out.. the list goes on. It's been really difficult - especially lately. I've almost always been on medication for this and lately I feel like that's been just a band-aid for me, a band-aid that even though the tests are showing is helping - it's really not helping how I feel. So I started to dig deeper into the cause and what I can do to help myself, I don't really want to live like this anymore. There has to be a better way and something that will help some of my symptoms and help my body feel better and maybe even help me lose weight! So I am going to be starting an elimination diet/Autoimmune...

I swear I keep meaning to blog once a week but it doesn't always happen. Sorry!  So the past few weeks have been somewhat..challenging. A lot going on and some of it has truly been me slacking and feeling bad for and about myself. This is where I come clean though and keep myself accountable. Every time I've looked in the mirror lately I kind of shudder a bit, I'm not used to seeing the person I'm seeing there. I'm not feeling good about myself and I'm trying so hard to stay on track and you'd figure feeling like that would keep me on track. Nope. It does the complete opposite, when you're feeling crappy about yourself, you do what comforts you. In my case it's food and sleep. Those are my safe places, my places to feel better - even though it's only momentarily. I lose all my motivation to do..anything really and it just spirals. How do I get myself back on track? Is it worth it? Will I ever be where I want to be? These are all the questions I...

I passed the two week mark yesterday, two weeks straight of doing some type of workout and trying my best to watch what I eat. If I'm being honest, I really really did not want to get out of bed this morning. I tried so hard to talk myself out of it and to just give myself "5 more minutes" but I knew if I did that, I'd start the ball rolling down that slow decline. I didn't go to the gym this weekend, but I did get my workouts in. Saturday was supposed to be my rest day but I spent most of it cleaning my house and still hit my 10k steps. Yesterday I went for an outside run/walk because it was beautiful out and then we took our son to the zoo, I think I ended the day with 14k steps. So today I knew if I didn't go to the gym, I would have no other chance to work out today and I wouldn't do anything. SO off I went, even when I was driving there, I tried talking myself out of it, I kept saying "I can just do a half hour on the elliptical". Well I got...

8 Days. I've gone to the gym for 8 days in a row. I've been sore just about every day, got a blister on my hand but it's been so worth it. I've had more energy than I've had in awhile and have been able to actually get stuff done around the house and I find myself making better food choices because I've already worked out in the morning. Today my friend came with me and it was so much better than going alone, having someone with you makes it easier to do that last rep or to keep pushing until the end (leg ups ugh and squats.. so many squats!). We did the workout from my Fitbod app and it was a really good workout! We're both fairly beginners at weight lifting so we're starting small and then will build up to lifting heavy. It helped me mainly because I was able to go to the weight side and actually feel confident about lifting weights. I wasn't intimidated by the other people there and it felt so good! I know I'll be pretty sore tomorrow but that...

So. I've sucked. The past month and a half have been really bad. I've gained..20 pounds. I'm so ashamed to admit that out loud. I saw pictures of myself from a girlfriend's bachelorette and honestly was ashamed of what I looked like. It was then that my switch went off, I can't keep doing this anymore, I can't keep starting over. I have to start and just keep f'ing going. That being said, I decided to reach out to my FaceBook for help, I have a few guy friends that are consistent gym goers and offered to help me. This is good. These are the guys who will kick my ass (not literally of course) if I skip a day and text me at 5:00 am to make sure I'm out of bed. I've told my husband I'm not allowed to sleep in anymore, usually I just stay in bed after he gets up at 5:20. Now I'm up and out of the house before he wakes up and this has to be every day. I have to build it into a routine so that it becomes natural. I haven't really been runni...

For the last few years I've been saying I wanted to do a half marathon, I had it as my ultimate goal three years ago and I still haven't achieved it. In fact, last year, it seemed so far off that I never thought I'd even come close to it. Well I'm thinking about it now and thinking I may have set my sights a wee bit high.  The day before yesterday I went for a run, I came back a bit discouraged because I couldn't run more than 5 minutes at a time. Everything hurt and I hated every second that I was running. My lungs were BURNING, it was awful. I was a total mess. So I reached out to some of my friends and they pointed out that I was likely going too fast and should slow it down a bit. So I took their advice to heart *they are all experienced runners*and planned on applying it the next day.  I set out yesterday and did my usual 5 minute warm up walk and started to run, I kept my pace slow and steady and focused on my breathing. I also changed my app to let me kno...

I haven't been doing great the last few weeks at planning and you know what, it's shown. I've been off the rails again. Ugh. So this week, I planned my meals already, did my grocery shopping and I have my plan ready to set up on Sunday. I only need to grab some mason jars and we should be good to go!  I'm going to share my meal plan so you can all see what I'm aiming for. Monday: Chicken Zoodle Caprese Tuesday: Taco stuffed peppers with side salad Wednesday: Turkey burgers with sweet potato fries (for me) Regular fries (for the guys) and a side salad Thursday: Filet Mignon with baked potato (Sweet for me) and Asparagus (possibly bacon wrapped) Friday: Steak Kabobs with peppers/onions/mushrooms (For me) and zucchini "fries"  Saturday: we're having family over so I'll do a big meal Sunday: Pizza skillet with a side salad  For breakfast I'm going to make overnight oats for myself, smoothies for my guys (and a veggie one for me for a sna...